clinging to the top

i made a promise once to myself to be a better person.
it's not for the others. but somehow to change my old way certainly take sometime.
i just need the forgiveness and the courage.

is it my mistake is unforgiven at all???
at the moment i see the light, i feel like I'm losing the light from the inside of my heart.
wonder if the light can bare just a little more while to see me as a person i need to be.

please...